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Ksenia Anske

December 6, 2015

Why editing is so damn hard

by Ksenia Anske


Art by Winnie Truong

Art by Winnie Truong

Art by Winnie Truong

Art by Winnie Truong

This post is dedicated to all editors out there, the magnificent people who have the talent to shape the fragile mess of words they receive from writers into something beautiful and yet still FUCKING FRAGILE AND MESSY the way it originally was. And when you look at it, at what they do, you scratch your head and wonder how the hell they do it. Or maybe you don't. Maybe you take it for granted. I know I did. Until last week. I thought, "Hey, that's what they're good at. That's what editors do. It's their job." I didn't know how hard it was until I tried it on my own.

This week I have received from Sarah the final condensed manuscript for Siren Suicides. What she did was squeeze 3 books (262K words) into 1 book (88K words) by doing magic cutting and stitching and reorganizing and yet keeping the story intact. I was elated. I dug into reading it as soon as I could. And guess what happened. I got so disgusted with my old writing that at first I rewrote a sentence. Then a paragraph. Then a whole page. Then I ended up spending a whole day on rewriting 6 first pages by mercilessly lopping off chunks of descriptions and dialogue and exposition and just plain butchering the thing till what I had left was clean gleaming bones. I polished the bones somewhat. When they were shining I was satisfied at last. I intended to do the same for the rest of the thing which at the rate of 6 pages a day would've taken me 55 days to finish which would've put my writing schedule on hold and instead of starting TUBE, Draft 3 in January I would've started it in March. I got gloomy thoughts on shooting myself with a Kalashnikov because, frankly, I didn't want to do this. I'm good at making myself do things I don't like, BUT I AM SO DONE WITH THIS STORY I DON'T WANT TO TOUCH IT.

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TAGS: Siren Suicides, editing, rewriting, voice


September 29, 2015

The consistency of your voice

by Ksenia Anske


Photo by Tom Kondrat

Photo by Tom Kondrat

Photo by Tom Kondrat

Photo by Tom Kondrat

You know that feeling you get when you read a fantastic book and it gives you shivers? When every page you turn makes you want to read more and more, and every sentence is so bloody good you want to read it twice and when you get to the end you're devastated the book is over? I have been pondering about this lately, having recently read three books that took my breath away, THE OLD MAN AND THE SEA by Ernest Hemingway and THE RITUAL by Adam Nevill and CRUDDY by Lynda Barry, and having dug up more information on all authors and having read this interview with Adam Nevill and having put WHAT IT IS by Lynda Barry (a book on her creative method) and Hemingway's ON WRITING on hold at the library, and all this pondering led me to write this post.

What was it so special about these books that got me? 

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TAGS: voice, consistency, writing, rewriting, drafts


April 23, 2014

How to read like a writer

by Ksenia Anske


Photo by Phillip Schumacher

Photo by Phillip Schumacher

Photo by Phillip Schumacher

Photo by Phillip Schumacher

How do you read books? With greed? Devour them? Or skim? Or dive in, here and there, when you have breaks, to snatch out a sentence or two? Or get lost and let yourself be absorbed? I suppose, all of those. Because I know. It's how I used to read too. Used to. Not anymore. It's a curse, in a way, I hate it. But I also love it. I'm a writer now. I can't skim or devour anymore, for two reasons. One, even if I try, I can't help noticing story elements, structure, new words, all these things that permeated my system. I write now. I do the same things. I know. Can't unknow it. It's there. It's like watching a movie and being aware of camera angles, and length of scenes, and continuity lapses, and actor's hair. Or socks. Or both. (Or lack of any clothes.) Anyway. I can't. At first I resented it. Until I realized the second thing, second reason why I can't read fast anymore. I'm learning how to write better, when I read. The more I read, the more I learn, the more I see, the more I read and learn again. It keeps growing like a snowball. Finally, I gave up on reading fast and am now savoring each book and also studying it, like I'm back in college. Only better. It costs next to nothing, I get to sit at home and do it at my leisure. 

So, you might ask, how DO you read like a writer?

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TAGS: patterns, vocabulary, certainty, grammar, voice, reading, books, how to


November 6, 2013

Write from the heart. The rest doesn't matter.

by Ksenia Anske


Photo by Joel Robison

Photo by Joel Robison

Photo by Joel Robison

Photo by Joel Robison

People keep asking me smart questions, about my books, about my writing, about my methods, thinking that I know it all, that I have developed some strategy for everything and am now implementing it. But I don't. I swear, I didn't. The only thing I know is, when I write, I'm happy. There is another thing I know too. The more I write, the faster I write, the easier it is for me to write, because I build up a routine and stop being scared. I also know that when I stop writing for a long period of time, it's harder for me to start again. And I know that reading inspires me to write, teaches me how to write. That's pretty much it. It comes down to two very simple things I try to do every day: write a lot and read a lot. This is my strategy. The rest I don't know, stumbling around in the dark just like you, learning things, making mistakes. Even for my social media, for Twitter primarily, I don't have a strategy, I simply try to be myself as much as possible. That's all there is to it. Yes, I have self-published, yes, I have even written a bunch of posts on how to self-publish your book, but, again, I don't do much in that regard. I don't do contests, or giveaways, or some other things. I simply give my novels away for free on my site, sell autographed copies, and I have posted my books for free everywhere I could, and where I couldn't, I posted it for the minimal price. The miracle is, people actually buy my books, not much, but they do. Which confirms my belief. Write from the heart, the rest doesn't matter.

You won't find your own voice, unless you write from the heart. I noticed this while reading 2nd draft of ROSEHEAD these past two days. There were parts where I got scared of being myself while writing, and they needed fixing, because they sounded fake. But there were also parts that made me think I'm reading a real published book, I got so much into the story. Those were the parts where I got rid of the fear somehow, perhaps got carried away, and I wrote like me. Not like somebody else I admire, but like me. Those were the moments when I forgot all about publishing, or reader's feedback, or grammar, or rules on how every novel has to have a message, or anything else usually deemed important, and simply wrote from the heart, wrote how I felt, and it was real. It sounded real, and suddenly I understood if there is one person on this planet to whom my story will also sound real, I have fulfilled my job as a writer. I stayed honest to myself and I connected with another human being. That alone is beautiful. I also realized that if I stayed true to myself, this connection would be a connection in the truest sense of the word, a 100% connection, not 80%, not 60%, not 43%, but the entire 100%. When a reader like this gives you their feedback, hearing it validates your writing to you like nothing else. In general, I'm scared that I'm no good, I look down upon my writing, so when I got several amazing book reviews from people raving about my work, it took me a while to accept it, but it also only made me want to stay myself, to keep writing from the heart no matter what.

Writing from the heart will sell, despite common fear that it might not. Several people have been asking me to blog my numbers on SIREN SUICIDES. There is really not enough material for me to fill out a whole blog post. I have published it in August of this year, so it's been 2 months since then. I calculated today the numbers. They're not big, by any means. I sold about 110 books on Amazon, both digital and paperback copies, and I sold about 120 books on my site, all autographed (curious how I sold a little more on my site, right?). Also, I have no means of tracking the number of free downloads of my books from my site, but combined downloads on other distribution platforms that I was able to track are a little over 1,300. There are your numbers. I wrote Siren Suicides from the heart, for therapy, honestly not thinking that anyone would be interested in reading it or buying it. But I have been proven wrong. People do still buy it, and read it, and send me messages how healing the books were to them. Slowly, I'm starting to be less afraid of being myself and to keep writing from the heart, because I'm prone to usual fears of every writer, the biggest of them all being, I'm running out of my savings in 4 months, and after that I have to find a way to make money, or else. I'm very tempted to give in to my fears, but I know that I must not. I must keep writing from the heart, no matter what. 

You don't know if anyone will read your work, so write from the heart to be happy. This is something I heard from Chuck Palahniuk at one of his readings. He was saying, you gotta write for yourself, because you never know if anyone will read your work or not, and the time you spend on writing, it's your life, so better spend it doing something you love. I've been following his advice ever since. Writing is a form of therapy, and it's only effective if you're honest with yourself, no matter how scary that might feel. I'm still scared, I can see it clearly in 2nd draft of Rosehead. There are still places where out of fear I try to be somebody else, and the writing always suffers because of it. Your heart knows who you are, it doesn't think, it just feels. Your brain, however, learned to think, and sometimes it thinks too much. This thinking gets in the way of feeling, when it's untrained, and this is where writer's block comes from. You think too much, you don't trust your emotions, your story, and, bam, you're blocked. It's not that you're actually blocked, it's more like you're scared, you're unsure of yourself. Imagine for a second that you didn't have to think, that you could simply write how you feel. Even if for the moment all you feel is being blocked. Surely there is someone out there who feels exactly the same way that you do. That's why writing from the heart is the only way to go. It's the only way to be happy, and the only way to connect.

Call me foolish, but this is what I believe in. Write, every day, write from the heart, keep writing no matter what, and then only day you will be surprised at people wanting to read your work, that one day when you least expect it. That's what I plan to do. I will keep writing and keep giving my books away for free for as long as I can. Currently, I have 4 months worth of money left, and so far this year I have made about $2,000 from selling books and a little over $2,000 from donations. I need about $20,000 a year to live on, so I'm thinking of doing a Kickstarter after my money runs out, to fund my future books. We shall see what happens. Let the race begin. 

TAGS: heart, write, writing, emotions, feeling, voice